If I think about trauma, on a personal level, I think about performance anxiety and how I could not perform due to the sheer terror of failure (which is in and of itself, another whole story) and not achieving the best results. I full-filled my self-prophecy each time. The rational or left side of my brain would literally go off-line and every irrational thought would take over on the right side of my brain and control my body – from shaking, to butterflies in my stomach, sweaty hands,to a dry mouth and not to mention the most dreaded part of all….a memory gone totally blank! To the extent that when having to dance a solo, after weeks of dress rehearsals, I would forget the routine and run off the stage mid-dance, petrified and shamed, to forgetting my work that I studied for weeks for my final matric exam, precisely on the night before having to sit and take the exam.
In my spare time, - that sounds quite paradoxical – as I don’t seem to have much of that phenomenon at all. Somehow, I thought as I got older and as my children left home , I would have more time to do “my thing.” But it seems that I have quite happily and blessedly transformed from being a very involved mom to being a very devoted grandmother. In truth, I am always missioning about what latest trauma technique to learn , what book to read, what zoom session or webinar to hook up to and I am going on a new course this month, called TIR – trauma induced reduction. Anyone ‘bok” to try it out?
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